God Is

“I EARNESTLY ADVISE EVERY ALCOHOLIC TO READ THIS BOOK THROUGH, AND THOUGH PERHAPS HE CAME TO SCOFF, HE MAY REMAIN TO PRAY.”

                                                                       William D. Silkworth, MD - Pg. xx

“GOD IS EVERYTHING OR HE IS NOTHING.  GOD EITHER IS OR HE ISN’T.  WHAT WAS OUR CHOICE TO BE?” Pg. 53

Pg. 59  We asked His protection and care with complete abandon.

THIRD STEP

Pg. 63 - God, I offer myself to Thee - to build with me and do with me as Thou wilt.  Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better do Thy will.  Take away my difficulties, that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help of Thy Power, Thy Love and Thy Way of Life.  May I do Thy will always!

FOURTH STEP

PG 67 RESENTMENT  - We asked God to help us show them the same tolerance, pity, and patience that we would cheerfully grant a sick friend.  When a person offended we said to ourselves, “This is a sick man.  How can I be helpful to him?  God save me from being angry.  Thy will be done”.

Pg. 68 FEAR  - We ask Him to remove our fear and direct our attention to what He would have us be.

Pg. 69 SEX - We asked God to mold our ideals and help us live up to them.

Pg. 69 SEX - In meditation, we ask God what we do about each specific matter.

Pg. 70 SEX - To sum up about sex: We pray for the right ideal, for guidance in each questionable situation, for sanity and for strength to do the right thing.

FIFTH STEP

Pg. 75  We thank God from the bottom of our heart that we know Him better.

Pg. 75   we ask if we have omitted anything,

SIXTH STEP

Pg. 76  If we still cling to something we will not let go, we ask God to help us be willing.

SEVENTH STEP

Pg. 76  My Creator, I am now willing that You should have all of me, good and bad.  I pray that You now remove from me every single defect of character which stands in the way of my usefulness to you and my fellows.  Grant me strength, as I go out from here, to do Your bidding.  Amen

EIGHTH STEP

Pg. 76  If we haven’t the will to do this, we ask until it comes.

NINETH STEP

Pg. 79 LEGAL MATTERS - We ask that we be given strength and direction to do the right thing, no matter what the personal consequences might be.

Pg. 80 OTHERS EFFECTED - If we have obtained permission, have consulted with others, asked God to help.

Pg. 82 INFIDELITY - Each might pray about it, having the other one’s happiness uppermost in mind.

Pg. 83 FAMILY  - So we clean house with the family, asking each morning in meditation that our Creator show us the way of patience, tolerance, kindliness and love.

TENTH STEP

Pg. 84  Continue to watch for selfishness, dishonesty, resentment and fear.  When these crop up, we ask God at once to remove them.

Pg. 85  Everyday is a day when we must carry the vision of God’s will into all our activities.  “How can I best serve Thee—Thy  will (not mine) be done”.

ELEVENTH STEP

Pg. 86 NIGHT After mediation on the day just completed, “We ask God’s forgiveness and inquire what corrective measures should be taken”.

Pg. 86 MORNING  Before we begin our day, “we ask god to direct our thinking, especially asking that it be divorced from self-pity„, dishonest or self-seeking motives”.

Pg. 86 MORNING  In thinking about our day, “We ask God for inspiration, an intuitive thought or decision”.

Pg. 87 MORNING  We usually conclude the period of mediation with a prayer that we be shown all through the day what our next step is to be, that we be given whatever we need to take care of such problems.  We especially ask for freedom from self-will, and are careful to make no requests for ourselves only  We may ask for ourselves, however, if others will be helped.  We are careful never to pray for our own selfish ends.

Pg. 87 - 88 ALL DAY  As we go through the day we pause, when agitated or doubtful, and ask for the right thought or action.  

TWELFTH STEP

Pg. 164  Ask Him in your morning meditation what you can do each day for the man who is still sick.  The answers will come IF your own house is in order.

Your job now is to be at the place where you may be of maximum helpfulness to others„ so never hesitate to go anywhere if you can be helpful.  You should not hesitate to visit the most sordid spot on earth on such an errand.  Keep on the firing line of life with these motives and God will keep you unharmed.   Pg. 102

The tao that can be told is not the eternal Tao The name that can be named is not the eternal Name.
The unnamable is the eternally real. Naming is the origin of all particular things.
Free from desire, you realize the mystery. Caught in desire, you see only the manifestations.
Yet mystery and manifestations arise from the same source. This source is called darkness.
Darkness within darkness. The gateway to all understanding.

“There have been millions and millions of alcoholics stagger across the face of this earth. They have lived and died in alcoholism. They have died, and they have carried down in disgrace, families, friends, and associates with them. They have caused carnage in this world, and they have died hopelessly. It’s been a tragedy.

Out of all these millions of people, therefore, why? You tell me why just a few thousand of us have this opportunity. Why are we chosen for this? Why am I chosen for this? Why do I get this chance? Why do you get this chance when thousands and thousands and millions and millions of other people never had this chance and there are probably millions around who never will or never shall? Ask yourself this, sometime. It might put a new value on your membership here.

These are the things we ought to check ourselves with once and awhile. I think it’s a miracle that any of us are here. ‘Cause no one ever gets here until he’s hopelessly lost.’”

Clarence S. - 1963

So I came up to a door and opened it and it was full of fuckits. Man they looked nice on the other side there. All fuckity fuck and all. Tempting indeed. BUt i closed the door and threw the key off the huge cliff the door was perched on. It’ll take a huge effort to get the fuckits door open again.

The end.

That is what alcoholism is, a soul crippling disease. The escape form it’s tentacles is nothing short of bliss.

If it is darkest before dawn, it is getting very, very dark right now. One door after another is closing, shutting me off from the light. Faith is paramount. Sine qua non.

Sometimes what get’s broken doesn’t get put back together again.

Sometimes what get’s broken doesn’t get put back together again.

sarkastickunt:

And yes, I come across a bit crass and loud and hard to swallow. I’m not for everyone. And I guess that’s okay with me, because it allows me to pick and choose who I let inside.

However, once I let you in, I give everything I have to keep you there. I fight for you. For us. I trust too fast. Too hard. With too much passion. I forgive too soon. Too many times. And lose pieces of my soul each and every time I do.

I may seem rough and hard around the edges, but underneath I’m all heart.

Even if part of it is broken.