God Is

I will only say this about that word. If you have not experienced it in matters of faith, you cannot know it. They say you cannot know what you do not know. I never thought I would have a doubt in my faith, but here it is. I cannot explain how it happened, as I have not changed anything in my program or routines. In fact, I have been slowly adding more spirituality to my life, working with more alcoholics, and being of more service. So I am pretty sure this is just what it seems to be. Indy at the leap of faith. I can tell you it feels like I have been kicked in the gut and I feel like vomiting most of the time. Wretched stuff.  I plod forward only with the knowledge that everything is going to be OK. Five years from now I will see God’s wisdom and my faith with be stronger than ever, I hope. See? There’s doubt again. Doubt…