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I had a bit of a scare earlier today. I was at work reading a document when suddenly I could not see a part of my direct field of vision. It was as if there was a hole in my sight. (I know we have blind spots). It was quite disconcerting and got better then worse. As it progressed I felt ill, then panicked and called my wife. She freaked, I then called my Dr., he was busy and would get back to me. I’m still waiting… ER visit was coming quick. I got someone to drive me home and then was faced with whether or not to go to the emergency room. I have medical insurance. SUpposedly good medical insurance. It costs a pretty penny. I called the pan to see how much an ER visit would cost. I did not like the answer as I have a PPO and would have to pay my full annual deductible, of which I have not used one bit. SO a trip to the ER is going to set me back a significant amount of money, even though I have health insurance. Crazy, no? I have had many visits in the past to ER’s for kids, myself, wife etc…it never cost me more than $50. Wait, there was the really expensive visit for one of my kids. That was different. Really different. But isn’t the ER supposed to be for real emergencies and also to go when you are having a stroke, heart attack or other neurological event? I have opted not to go because, I feel normal again, and can see without issue. I realize that does not mean I did not have some event that warrants immediate primary care but cost won out in my decision process. Cost should not be the deciding factor in whether or not to seek medical assistance. So if I kick off tonight, you’ll all know that healthcare’s rising cost and my diminishing ability to make money are the culprits. (I know the argument is full of holes but it sounds good.)