Today I am at the crossroads. Not to make a deal with the devil but to surrender to God. Once again, I give. Really. Fate has squeezed every last bit of defiance I have left in me. I’m all in on the faith thing. I have been falling a terminal velocity toward the hard tarmac since March of last year. Without a chute. Bad economy, bad decision, bad friendships, seemingly bad everything. Well there is the good side - Good AA, sponsorship, sponsees, program.
So I am at the crossroads. Today is the day. My decision will be based mostly on the outcome of one phone call. The collective future of my family and most importantly my kids futures will be forever impacted by the choices made today. I must choose wisely. I need God’s grace and guidance to help me choose wisely. I need for Him to give clear cut direction. I give. I obviously am not paying good enough attention to what I am sure has been clear cut guidance from God. Or may be this has been the plan. It ceratinly is plain eanough. Everything boiling down to one day. One decision. Door #1? Or Door #2? Is there an unseen Door #3? (probably….
Today is the day. I pray for my wife and kids. I need the collective prayers of anyone who reads this.
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